I am not afraid to keep on living. I am not afraid to walk this world alone. Honey, if you stay, Ill be forgiven. Nothing you can say can stop me going home. That was the chorus from a song that really affected me. The song is Famous Last Words by My Chemical Romance.
I first heard the song in late October a few days after I bought The Black Parade when it came out on the 24th. It was the following Saturday in that week and I spent an hour alone in my room to listen to the new CD from start to finish. When I heard the song play near the end of the CD (it was track 13 out of 14), I thought it was a really good song and that it was meaningful.
A few months have passed and I listened to the CD more and more. By the middle of January, Famous Last Words became a single and the UK music video was released on the internet. When I watched it, it left me emotionally touched. Gerard (Way; lead vocalist of MCR) looked like he really meant what he was saying. Seeing his actions and his facial expressions nearly brought me to tears because it made the video so beautiful.
When the end of February came, I found a piece of a magazine article that really shocked me. This is what Gerard said in the article: This is not something Ive ever told anyone else. I had been in a long-term relationship and it fell apart during the making of The Black Parade. Im alone right now, for the first time in 10 years. Thats not something people know about me. Its really hard. Ive had girlfriends since I was 17 or 18. Now Im 29. It wasnt something that anybody did. It was a six year relationship that ended. It was practically marriage. It was with someone who knew me before the band. Halfway through recordingliterally just when I finished tracking the vocal parts and chorus line to Famous Last WordsI realized that line (I am not afraid to walk this world alone) was the truth. I broke up with her a week later. I had to fly back and talk to her, move my stuff out. It was brutal. But Ive been enjoying being free and not having to make phone calls. Its a good feeling at firstbut then you check into a hotel room and realize theres no one who misses you like a girlfriend misses you. Ill sit there and stare at the wall. When we were on our last European run I would just go out at night and walk around alone, thinking, Well, this is interesting... I was surprised by the article. It really got me thinking for quite a while, and then I realized that that line was true for me too. I dont need love from a guy to do what I want to do in life.
My main point is that a person doesnt need love from another to reach their goals. I cant make anybody love me, and they dont care anyway. Theres nothing I can say to change their mind about me. Love is demanding. Itll make you weak and you wont be able to speak. Itll blind you. But let the world know how you feel. This is what I have to say: I see you lying next to me with words I thought Id never speak, awake and unafraid, asleep or dead.